Only if...

Only if you knew what conflict was battling inside me
Between the dark and the light
Only if you knew the worst side of me
The side that makes me cringe
Only if you knew the struggles I face
The ones that take me out at the knee's
Only if i could just simply breathe
But the anxiety succeeds
Only if you knew how I feel sometimes
Everything that goes wrong is my fault
Only if you knew the feeling of complete brokenness
Shattered completely 
Only if I could understand why some days I just sit down and cry
It must be my brain
Only if I could feel so overjoyed
So much happiness I couldn't contain it
Only if you knew me.