Living: a Poem by Me :)

I am finally living for myself

Not for you

I won’t worry what you think of me or how you feel

You’re dead to me and that’s the truth

These months and years I’ve wasted chasing a ghost

A shell of you that you left long ago

But now I realize I deserve better than lies, fights, and sleepless nights

If you truly loved me then it would be me and only me you’d want

And you give up all the drugs, drinking, bi-sexual tendencies and atheism

You’d come back to God and stop running, surrendering your broken soul so that he can fix it

But instead you bruise and beat the ones that love you

You traumatized me but I loved you anyways

I gave myself and my morals up for you

I surrendered my soul to make sure yours was full of contentment   

Tell me if that makes sense to you!?

I don’t think I will ever feel comfortable with myself; my body, my weight

You stole a part of me

It’s still hanging on your sleeve, calling to me

Beckoning me to jump in and save it

But to do that I would be facing the devil because he has taken over you

Instead I’ll let you keep it and I will have God restore my soul

My peace of mind, my innocence and my beauty

So that I can finally look at myself and say you are beautiful! You are worth it! There is someone for you!

Patience is what I must have

Waiting is what I must do

Forgiveness is what I must feel

Because I am forgiven and even you are too.

A Fine Frenzy: Liar Liar

Liar, liar
You're such a great big liar
With the tallest tales that I have ever heard
Fire, fire
You set my soul on fire
Laughing in the corner as it burns
Right between the ribs is sinking in

Oh, the sirens sing so sweet and watched the sailors go down
Oh, oh, you talk to me in siren song
Yeah, anyone would drown
Anyone would drown

Sick and tired of this mad desire
Fluttering aside me like a hawk
Wire wire
Got my hands on wires
Will heaven help you when I get them out?

Right between the ribs
You'll feel it then

The sirens sang so sweet and watched the sailors go down
Oh, oh, you talk to me in siren song
Yeah, anyone would drown
Anyone would drown

All the ships go down
Following the sound
All the ships go down

Oh oh the siren sang so sweet and watched the sailors go down
Oh oh oh, you talk to me in siren song
Yeah, anyone would drown 

This is my life right about now...

thisishowifeel..

If you love someone let them go, if they come back then punch them in the face :)
 #notinagoodmood.

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soooooooooooo bored!!

English class

I'm sitting in english doing the portfolio.. meh

Screw This.

Just about done with people..

Young Men.

I am sick of being looked at as a piece of meat!! I'm a human with feelings not some trophy!! I may be physically attractive to you but you have to touch my heart and my soul before you ever touch my body..